"WHEN YOU GO"

There's so much to offer so much to throw away
The ever present darker side is making you color blind.
But luckily my blinded one I know you and not what you've done
Not what you've done
You beautiful soul

When you go a feeling that chokes
When you go a feeling that soaks
When you go away into the unknown
When you go you break my heart
Don't you go cause it chokes, it chokes

Given all you are inside a shaft of light that you can't hide
But an idle mind will dominate and feel all the demons steak
When you walk around that oldstreet
Where you lived and who you were then
You can have it again
Everything's not broke

It's a fever that soaks you go away
Into the unknown
Into the unknown
When you go you break
Don't you go yeah cause it chokes, it chokes

--JULIA CAMPBELL--

Last Thursday, the 9th day of the month, was her 4th death month anniversarry. Prayers for her soul.

Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like the water
All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water
The fire fades away
Most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's to hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me
On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along
The fire fades away

The Past Weeks

As update to my last entry, my classmate who was offended by my silly joke and I are doing fine. When that incident happened, I was so scared, that the smooth bonding that was then starting might lost, but then she said she understood it. So, back in gaining cool bonds, but this time, as I said, I'll watch my words :) Yup, she's one of my group mates in my thesis group that I've just met this Semester, and we're just starting a cool smooth bonds. I'm getting to know them more and so are they to me.

Well, since I've mentioned about it, the thesis, my group is approaching to the fifth, and as my old classmates, who finished the course already, are saying, the most difficult chapter. After chapter 5, then two more to go, and we're done. We're not completely done with chapters 3 & 4, though. Chapters 3 & 4 was no joke. The past few weeks were so hectic. My group was so worn-out on our individual tasks. We submitted the said chapters for re-checking, but only chapter 3 was checked. And, as what we had on our first report, back in late June, our teacher found a lot of corrections and mistakes, but this time, just the little ones. More on typographical and grammatical errors, so we were not the upset anymore.

Well, about the problem with my group mates that I mentioned before? Uhmm..I would say that it's not that big anymore. Most members in the group are having cool bonding, that makes a great communication within the group. Everyone is doing their part and tasks. But not completely, as I said. There are still ...some who don't give their best 100%, not even close to it. How would a group workout and would have an excellent outcome if one of their members is not functioning? If he/she is not doing his/her tasks? If he/she doesn't have the initiative? That is the big problem of my group.

One of my group mates is not participating. She just enters the class, secures her attendance and sits on her chair all 3-hour long, while the rest of the group are haggard on their tasks. The group doesn't know how to motivate her anymore. We gave her two assignments, but neither were correct. There was a lot or... I would say that all of them were erroneous. And we had to repeat all of those by ourselves, which was so time consuming. I don't understand why she doesn't see the benefits of doing her part in this project, it's for her own good, too.

As I said, THESIS is the hardest part in the college life. We have to make a 7 chaptered book as the result of our feasibility project. When the book is finished, we still have to defend its contents to the selected expert panelists. The grades will be depending on how we defend. The grade of a particular member will be the grade of the whole group. If one doesn't know the details about the project, and was asked by the panelists, which is inevitable, it would affect the grades the group will get. Now, how this girl would know the details, if she doesn't participate and usually doesn't attend the outside the school meetings? We are almost done with the first 4 chapters, but she hasn't shared anything. Not even thoughts or ideas. She's good in contributing financially, though. But we need mental! Well, I will send her a letter, a motivation letter. I will try to motivate her. So, wish me luck, guys. This is the only problem my group is having right now. If we couldn't solve this, we wouldn't get the grades we are aiming, or much worst, fail, because of her!

Anyway, still about the past weeks. Our country was experiencing from droughty. Yup, I said on my previous entry that this season the rain and typhoon was supposed to come, but nothing came. A lot of farms and major water sheds are shorting water stocks. The government sponsored a cloud seeding, but it was not enough. It was weird to have drought in the rainy season.

A cardinal called for a prayer request for the rain to come and supply farms and dams. Few days later, a heavy rain came, brought by the two typhoons. With that, farms were watered and water in major dams are back in to its normal volume. If the rain didn't come, the major water company was supposed to shortage their supply to households starting this week, which was a bad news.

Mum said that it's true, the rain came because of the prayers. I was amazed with how powerful prayers are. But then, that requested rain brought calamities. Some provinces were drowned by overhead floods, there were casualties, minor landslides, and floods, floods and floods in the Metro Manila, and of course, classes were suspended. It's nice that prayers was granted, but so sad when there were lives taken :(

Lastly, yeah, I will mention it. I've just turned a year older exactly a week ago. Just want to thank my linked friends who remembered it. I appreciate it, guys. Luckily, all of the people I was expecting to greet me have greeted me. This is a late thank you, but still, thank you :) For those who didn't know my birthday or have forgotten to greet me, you can still do so, hehe :)

Anyway, hope you guys are all doing great. Have a great and a wonderful time there :)
Huggies :)

P.S. : Of course I wont forget about it. Happy 20th Birthday to my dear friend, Ira Roslan. Whom I promised to write a letter to, but I haven't been yet, hehe. Happy Birthday, my dear sis. Hope you're having a great day wherever you are right now. I wish you all the best and of course, good health. I love you :) Big hugs. Leo RuLz! \m/

My Stupid Mouth

It's a part of my interaction with my closest friends and with my coolest classmates to give jokes or something that is funny, to them. Not because I want to be funny or anything, but I think it's in-nature in me. I knew it, that not all jokes are funny, not all jokes that I throw away are amusing, that some people are sensitive. How come I've forgotten about that?

Last Friday, I didn't know that I offended my classmate's feeling, because of my silly joke. Sorry, guys, can't tell you about the joke, it's too personal, and must not be broadcasted. Anyway, I've just found out about it when one of our classmates told me. I was so disappointed to myself about it. I know my joke was a bit offensive, but..it's just, I never thought she's the kind of person who easily gets hurt. I have just met her this Semester, so. Anyway, I apologized to her, she didn't say anything about it, but it seemed she accepted it. I promised myself to watch my words next time. I'm so guilty about it. I really am :'(


"My stupid mouth has got me in trouble
I said too much again
Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery than she desert me
Oh, I'm never speaking up again
Starting now"

My Negative Side

Nothing much to say, but I'd like to post something. My negative side:

-I easily give up
-I lack self-confidence
-I have a low self-esteem
-I easily get intimidated
-I don't speak English fluently
-I don't clean my room regularly, I always pray at night, though :p
-I often say bad words
-I don't use "po" and "opo" to my parents. I use it though to other elder people.
**'po' and 'opo' are words use when responding to the elders as courtesy. It must always attach on our every response.
-I am insomaniac
-I always crack my knuckles
-I'm irreverent to my father
-I'm not in to open forums. I don't like talking about serious stuff.
-I hate being asked questions about my father, likewise on my school.
-I don't cook nicely
-I bite finger calluses. My calluses, of course! :p
-I litter
-I'm a jinx and a bum person
-I don't dress nicely
-I don't have a good penmanship
-I'm ill-tempered person. Hehe, just kidding! :p
-I don't go to church regularly
-I'm always late when meeting with somebody. Filipino time, that is :p
-I'm impatient
-I don't talk too much, not even much.
-I cheat at school during examinations. I mean, I 'used' to :p
-I don't do my house chores with all my hearts. That would result me to 'accidentally' break our stuff like chinas.
-I'm not a good adviser. I don't think I give advice either.
-I hate vegetables! I hate hearing the crispness of the veggies whenever you bite them. Eeeiiiw >_<
-I'm not trustworthy. Just kidding :p
-I eat and drink cold stuff whenever I have cough and cold
-I am a hoarder
-I'm not the outspoken type. Most often I keep issues about something to myself.
-I have a messy hair!



***Happy 33rd Birthday to the two-time Academy Award winner, Hilary Swank :)

The Result Is Here

Few weeks ago, I've mentioned about the medical examination that I have to pass, for our course department to allow me to take my Hotel Practicum and In-Service Training on October. And I just got the result. It says I'm physically fit and that they are allowing on the said training! :) Thank God. I thought there was going to be a bad result. I was so worried. I remember, the night before the exam, I couldn't sleep, I was so worried about it, about the result and about the doctors. Now I'm relief. I'm so happy for the result that I got, all the tests that I had were normal and that I'm negative of any diseases. Well, actually, I sacrificed for this exam. I didn't take salty foods or other salty condiments and soft drinks for a month. Salty condiments, like iodized salt and fish sauce are like my dish accompanies when I'm eating, along with iced cold Coke. Those are stuff that I couldn't resist of not having with whenever I'm having meals, but I sacrificed it. And, it paid off. Thanks. Now, I'm eating with those again :)

But somehow, still a part of me feels bad. How if there are some who got health problems? It would be a hindrance for them. How could they take their Hotel training and graduate in March, if the doctors found problems on their tests? :( Anyway, I wish there is none, or if ever there are, I'm praying for them. Now, for those who have bad health, please don't lose hope. It still can be cured. Hopefully before October. I'm praying for you :(


Say it's true, black and blue, I can share your situation
Been holding our emotions back, will only make us cry
If you go, I know, but you know, it ain't so serious anyway
When the clouds arise well live on..
Ocean drive
Don't know why you're so blue
Sun's gonna shine on everything you do
And the sky is so blue
Sun's gonna shine on everything you do

:(

Their focus was on the State Of the Nation Address (SONA) of GMA. Today is the court trial on Juan Duntugan, the primary suspect to the Julia Campbell case. I've been waiting for this day, but unfortunately, I didn't get any news about the hearing. The news were all about the SONA!