Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I Realized All About My Lies


What's up with the month of July?! It's not just when the celebrities and other cool people celebrate their birthdays, but also, the date ...I felt my first heartbreak. I've been single for two years now, and haven't moved on yet. Never will, I think :( I badly miss this guy :'(



Slow down, lie down
Remember it's just you and me
Don't sell out, bow out
Remember how this used to be
I just want you closer
Is that alright?
Baby let's get closer tonight

Grant my last request
And just let me hold you
Don't shrug your shoulders
Lay down beside me
Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere
But one last time just go there
Lay down beside me
Oh, I've found, that I'm bound
To wander down that one way road
And I realise all about my lies
But I'm no wiser than the fool I was before

I just want you closer
Is that alright?
Baby let's get closer tonight

Oh, baby, baby, baby
Tell me how can, how can this be wrong?

Yeah, lay down beside me
One last time let's go there
Lay down beside me

11 comments:

Ira Roslan said...

It does take a long time to get over somebody, but you will eventually. I admire you for being single, just like I admire some other people I know who are too. It's not such a bad situation if you know what to do with it. And there are many possibilities.
Don't let memories make you regret. Life is too short, sis.

If you need to 'girl-talk' you can find me and we can just crap around and talk about how boys suck, lol.
*big hug* :)

Aaron said...

Hey sis.

Well, at least you've been there, been in love and all. I'd give almost anything to taste what that's like. No wait, make that anything.

But Ira's right, don't dwell on it for too long.

(and not all boys suck)

rhEa said...

OMG :(
Thnx, guys. Your words sumhow helped. But then, I don't want to forget this guy, about him, and what we had :(

Ira Roslan said...

It's okay to remember and look back, it shows that you know how to appreciate the good things in life. And not many people are willing to do that. So it's a good thing.

But remember that there will always be better moments that come by that you won't be able to forget either. So let the memory come in a positive way, because you know that you experienced something so good. Just because it's over it doesn't mean that it won't come by again. Who knows, any guy could just come and sweep you off your feet... but for every guy who does that, keep the dust out of your eyes. You don't want to realize too late that all the pretty things were all just lies.

Don't wish for whatever in the past that's over and done with. Let it go and breathe the free air. If you can't let it go, cut it off from you. There's always a chance for you to learn from the past. And that's how we learn to be a better / wiser person.

Omg... I sound so annoying.
Okay, sis, take care. Stay strong.

Prudence Elektra said...

hey there. I've updated my post ;)

check it out hehehe

rhEa said...

Thnx so much, Ira. I'll try and keep in mind everything you said. Thank you.

And, nope, you don't sound annoying. I luv everything you say :) *hugs*

pandanita said...

Hi sista. :)

Letting go of someone is not about forgetting sista, it's about remembering what has once been. All the things you shared with him, are your memories. And one day, you will be able to look back and smile, because they are good memories.

Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to do. And I believe none of us ever really CAN get over a goodbye. But eventually we learn to accept the hard reality and life goes on. Although there is no easy fix getting there.

For some people it takes years. For others, it takes less time. It's individual, just like everything else here in life. So don't feel weird or stupid for not being able to let go of him, even though it has been 2 years since your relationship ended. Just take your time sista, do what you have to do. You're the only one who can do it, and therefor you have to do it YOUR way.

Just don't forget to smile and laugh and enjoy life while you are moving on. Try to take care of those moments and let those moments give you a good feeling.
And take care of yourself! :)

And please believe me when I say, there will come a day where you WILL feel better. Look at me...don't you remember how heartbroken and sad I used to be because of Mark?

It took me a loooong time getting over that idiot. Haha. But I am over him and I have moved on! ;)

Love you sista! INGAT always :)
Big hugs!!

rhEa said...

Oh, yeah, Mark! :@ But, this guy is not like Mark. He's worth it, and always cares for me during our times, but the problem was me. I didn't appreciate him until we got seperated :( Maybe that is why I'm having hard time moving on. I think you know him? He knows you.

Anyway, thnx, sis. Yeah, I think, it's about time to finally let go of him, and face the reality that he's gone. Well, I'll go and try. I'm still hoping, though, that he'll greet me on my bday. It would help make my special day.

*sigh* This is why I luv you guys. You always have nice words when I need it. And, it feels good to have it. :) Thnx.

Hugs.

pandanita said...

I know sista. It's hard. *hug*

Hmm. He knows me? Really? WoW. Then he must be one of those who used to support M2M!! :o)
Maybe I'll know who he is, if I hear his name. But right now, I have no idea who this guy is.

But nevermind that.
Today is YOUR birthday, and we should celebrate!!!! Hehehe :o)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTA!! Hope your day turns out to be special. That when you go to bed tonight, you have a smile on your face :)

Do you have any plans? :)
I wrote to you at facebook... but I am not sure that you use facebook? lol :o)

BIG BIRTHDAY HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!

Aaron said...

Hey Mayleen, you do know him. I won't say his name here, but let's just say that he was one of the top chatters at Marion's old chatroom in the purple site.

And Rhea, saying this again: Happy Birthday;)

rhEa said...

Aww..:$
Thnx for greetings and wishes guys. I really appreciate them, I swear. Anyway, my special day didn't turn out that well. I didn't have that smile when I went to my bed, sorry. Yeah, it has sumthing to do with this guy.

Omg, I've been babbling :$