It Was A 'Friendly' Date

I did not get enough sleep the night before Saturday. Excitement was the main reason. On the big day, luckily, I was not late as opposed to what I used to be when we were still dating.

While waiting, I was figuring out where he would take me. He said it is a surprise. Few minutes later, an SUV was honking, and then rolled its window. OMG! It was him!

My heart was beating crazily as I hopped in his car. I could not believe how successful he is. The car is his brother’s, he told me, but still he is a successful guy. He noticed the smell of my hair as I buckled up, “You’re still using the same hair conditioner” And, I was giggling deep inside. We were so quiet the first few minutes. I don’t know to him, but me, I was so nervous. I didn’t know what to ask him. The questions I gathered the night before Saturday vanished.

“So, where we’re going”, I started. He said he’s taking me to a nice, far, place. I knew there was nothing to worry, I still trust him. Then we talked about a lot of stuff, as he drives, but then most often we were so quiet. Maybe we were adjusting ourselves. It two years ago the last time we went out. After two hours, we finally arrived at the ‘far’ place. OMG! This is the same city where he first proposed his feelings to me, will he do it again this time?

We dined-in at an American-setting restaurant. Again, there was a lot to talked about while we were eating, but not about us. After having our dinner, we walked to a nice park, with nice temperature, a bit cold. I thought it was a nice place for him to tell me about what he feels, but still, he didn’t say anything about it. He didn’t even tell me about dating new girl, nor asked me if I was dating. Until it was getting late, then we went back to his car, and drive back home. It was just a ‘friendly’ date, I told myself, as we were getting in the car.

On the road, he kept on noticing my figure. I look slimmer than before, he insisted, but I wouldn’t believe him. He even asked me why I lose weight. Deep inside I was, like, “it’s because I’m missing you”. I liked it when he passed his fingers through my hair, touched my shoulder to check if I feel cold or sleepy. Shit! I wish those touches mean something. I really miss you! :(

He dropped me home, and the ‘date’ was over. And, no talking about the stuff I wanted to talk about happened. I t was totally a friendly date, I realized. It was fine with me, at least I was able to spent some hours with him. I wish, though, he would still invite me again next time. And, if that happens, I swear, I will be the one to open the issue between the two of us. I really want you back! :(

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

Monthly Forecast

My monthly Chinese calendar forecast for this month says that this Lunar March (April 4-May 4) is a fortunate month for me. Such, all my previous problems are gone with the wind all of a sudden. Money matters also says good. But what made me more elated is my love forecast for this month. It says I'll have many chances to get acquainted with my dream lover.

To tell you guys, I'm a bit cynical about Chinese Horoscope. "It only applies to Chinese", I thought. But what if I try to believe in them, even just once?

Last night, I received an SMS from someone whom I did not expect to send me an SMS. I don't think you would guess him, either :p Let's just say that his SMS brought a HUGE smile on my face as I read his message. So huge that mum and my brother gave me a stranged look and wondered who sent me the message. Okay, Im not gonna take this too long. It was my dear ex boyfriend. Yeah, the same guy I've been babbling about the past years. My one and only dear ex. So, what was in the SMS that caused the big smile? He is inviting me out!! He even used the term, "date".

I was so excited, I couldn't sleep last night. I thought of the things this guy might ask me , thinking of how I would answer them, I was thinking of what I should ask him, how would I behave, stuff like that. But, of course, at the same time I was nervous. Maybe the reason of inviting me out is to let me know that he is engaged, and he'd introduced to me his future wife, that he's inviting me to their wedding. Or, maybe he's leaving to work to another country. Maybe he meant by date is a 'friendly date'. Please, God, no :(

Saturday will be the day. Wish me luck, guys. Hope nothing would get in the way. Help me pray for a beautiful weather on that day. Who knows, this might be what my monthly forecast is saying :) Btw, he's monthly forecast for April also says his Romantic Star appears and shines bright this month.

This Blog Is Not Abandoned

(as yet. Hehe)


Yup, I'm still here. Wow, four months in silence! Man, beat that! Hehe. Same here, I thought I was dead, too. I was not moving. Or, I'll just say that I was too lazy to update you with my lifeless life. Nothing much interesting about the past months, but then there were things that I should have let you know; (but still...lifeless)

Two months ago, I undergone a dental treatment called, Root Canal Treatment. At first, it sounded horrible to me, since I have a dental fear. Good thing, my dentist knows a very good endodontist. And, this guy helped me overcome my fear. I used to dread dentists, but now I can go to them ALONE! And, with excitement :) However, though, I'm feeling something weird with my treated tooth. Part of me was thinking maybe the treatment failed, but when I went back to my endodontist, he said that there's nothing to worry. I hope so, too. I hope I'm just overreacting, since it is my first time to have such treatment. But, I'm currently seeking another dentist's opinion, so fingers' crossed.

About a month ago, a college friend got married. Malou, one of my nicest college friends exchanged vows with her good man, Gregg. The ceremony made me weep. As I watched my good friend walk down the aisle, I was imagining myself doing the same while the man I've ever dreamed marrying to waiting on the other end. Too bad, in reality, this man is the same one I lost years ago. I promised myself to move on, but I still miss him. Anyway, tying the knot was not the only event that day. Malou gave birth five or six months ago, so they had the baby's christening on that same day, just right after the wedding ceremony. Another thing I envied of her. During my Grade School, every time I answer on my classmates' 'autograph book', there was always this question, "at what age you imagine yourself giving birth", and I always put "24" on the line. It didn't change up to High School. Giving birth at 24 is cool, so my kid would have the same birth year sign that I belong to, I thought. Too bad, I don't think I could pursue that. I'm almost 25, and single.

So, what I've been up to? This will shock you, but I still don't have a job yet! I know! I've been a year bum, and technically not a 'fresh graduated' anymore. The past few months, I thought, maybe what I need is an intensive training. Maybe the reason why I always get rejected is my lackness of experience and not possessing much training certificates. So, I enrolled for a training in hotel and restaurant services. I started my training last April 1, and will end in 3 months. So far, I'm enjoying it. My classmates are all good and hopefuls as I am. So, wish me luck. Hope the skills and certificates I'd gain from this training would help me land a nice hospitality job.

Speaking of hospitality jobs, as I started my training, a friend left to work in a cruise ship. Furdie, whom I met more than a year ago in the hotel where I had my internship, is now applying what he acquired from his school to the people at the luxurious Costa Crociere bound to Italy. Truly as Hotel and Restaurant Management, or other Hospitality course graduate, working in a luxury ship is a dream came true. Hope I'll have mine to come to life, too :( Anyway, to Furdie, you take care over there, and good luck ;)

I can't believe that I'm still useless to the society for a year now. But then, I'm not losing hope. I almost did, but thanks to the big Guy upstairs, he didn't let me to. Today, as we celebrated the resurrection of Christ, it brings more hope to me. A new life, a new hope, as they say. Happy Easter to the Christians :)

Hope you guys are all doing fine are all doing fine. Until the next FOUR months! Hehe :p

P.S. Dessy, I still haven't received your email confirmation on allowing me to view your blog. LOL! :p